thoughts of today.

while these may be thoughts of today, that does not mean that i have not thought about them several times before.

#1: i hate that no matter how hard i try, i ALWAYS run out of conditioner before shampoo. ALWAYS.

#2: like running out of conditioner, the black ink in my printer is on low right now while my color ink looks untouched.

#3: i got a fortune cookie at panda express. i have been really let down by their fortunes as of late, but as i cracked open my cookie to my surprise there was NO fortune inside. NONE. a) is this sue-worthy? b) i may or may not have been relieved since i was spared the pain of another fortune.

ever had days full of pondering? you should try it. it's quite entertaining.

well, i must go to sleep. gym time tomorrow, rise and shine at 4:40 AM. Morgan, just look back on this is 10 years and remember how dedicated you once were in your life. bahaha.

love, morgs

randommmm.

just wanted to post a little note to myself so that i would remember it.

the other week i went to see an advisor who i had never met. she read my full name on the computer screen and replied, "wow you have a beautiful name." to which i obviously replied with a thank you. before i knew it she said, "with your luck you'll probably marry someone with a really crappy last name."

awesome. thank you, you sweet advisor lady. nice to meet you too.

love, morgs

hoping, dreaming, wishing.

as i sit here doing my homework and printing off my notes for tomorrow at school i can't help to hope that when i go to bed tonight i will wake up to it being june 19th. seriously, peru cannot come any faster. it was almost like the time flew by for the first few months of waiting but now that it's finally in reach it just wants to drag right on by.

just another day in the life of morgan alexis!

xoxo,

morgs

time.

my worst enemy, my best friend. it determines how much time i have to get things done. it determines how much time i have to spend with loved ones. it determines how much i can sleep or when i have to be to class. it determines how organized i have to be and forces me to use it much more wisely.

it seems as though time is the cause of all of my problems. if i had more time maybe i could be a better student. if i had more time maybe i would be happier to go to school in the morning. if i had more time maybe i would feel more prepared about the day ahead of me.

in this life it seems like time determines everything. it's a major stress, determinant of how we go about our day, but most of all time is a blessing.

Harvey MacKay said this:

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't

own it, but you can use it. You can't keep

it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it

you can never get it back.”

i want to take advantage of my time the best i can. i want to study the best i can, spend time with my family, stay on top of all the tasks i have ahead of me.

it's hard keeping an eternal perspective when the things that are right in front of you are so overwhelming. sometimes it takes realizing what little time you have left with someone or something that makes time such an urgent matter.

challenge for the week: utilize your time to the best of your ability. visit those you have only a little more time with. study a little more to get that better grade. take time and apply it to your life however it fits best.

xoxo,

Morgs

neglect.

obviously i am several days behind on this blogging business. it's really hard to be a cool blogger when you go to school full time and a half (yes i did just say full time plus a half aka 19). if i could choose between the two i would totally blog my life away though.

today was seriously a rough day (when i woke up at least). i though biology was wayyy better than chemistry in high school. i understood the concepts, it came easily to me, and then college came along. although i still suck/am not fond of chemistry and physics, i seriously suck at college bio. seriously (notice the repetitive seriously's...this means serious business).

my teacher is like the sweetest lady ever who covers the most basic concepts in class. basically you have to attempt to read the whole 4 chapters on the test and take online practice quizzes to hope you understand it. then you get to test day where you go take your test on the most crazy in depth questions that are only for the genuises of the class and walk out of the class knowing your self esteem needs some time to recover. luckily there is a curve for people experiencing the same sad sob story i am which means instead of having an F i pretty much have a C...so not okay.

needless to say, if you know my personality you know this is really NOT OKAY. i may or may not have been a basket case this morning and gone cried in front of my teacher because of all the stress/frustration/suckingness.

isn't it crazy how some days go so well then all the sudden it's a hard knock life?? yikes.

seriously, yikes.

morgs

a first.

sometimes i go to the gym and try to redeem my pass. sometimes i get so frustrated that i get emotional. here's a new first: crying at the gym when the people try to make you feel like they are benefitting you in no way shape or form.

thanks all you cars salesman. you make life super awesome.

tears & all,

morgan

who are you?

i feel so grateful to have been raised the way i did. i am so happy that i turned out to be the person i am today. i know i have flaws. i know i am not perfect. when it's all said and done i want to know that i have been a good example to those around me. i want to be someone who people want to be like. so what if i don't have a bikini body? so what that i don't have the highest gpa at asu? (both of the previous statements are easier said than done...)

i don't want to be known as "the girl who did..." or said something, etc. i want to be someone who is looked up to, whether it be in person, or when people are FB stalking me (all my creepers, don't you even deny it..).

recently i started reading a churchy book. with school and everything in life going on i usually don't have time to read, but even just reading 15 pages into this book has thrown me for a reality check. are we one person by day and someone else by night? are we one person at church and another person at home? are we one person with some people and another person with others?

here is the challenge for the day (aka week, month, year, or lifetime):

BE YOURSELF all day EVERY DAY. don't fall into the ways of other people. be who you are for you, not for anyone else.

that's a wrap.

xoxo,

morgs

40.

please be a dream. do i really have to wake up in the morning to go to school again? isn't spring break supposed to be a whole week?? why the heck did it feel like only a weekend?! only 40 more (or less) stressful ish days of the semester left. hallelujah.

puzzling.

well, we just got home from mexico. it was a nice little get away (getaway? get-a-way??). now it's back to the studying for tests, catching up on a paper that i am way behind on, etc.

i was really grateful for this trip to mexico this year for a certain reason. initially i was not so happy about going to mexico for spring break. i was, in fact, quite disappointed. it is definitely not swim suit season for me--nor will it be for a while! this would also be one of the first trips where i would be kinda hanging solo. no best friend, no cousins my age, etc.

i loved this trip for one reason (and no, the reason is not running after the helado man..although it was a close call..NOT), it was because i got to spend so much time with my grandpa. my grandpa has been battling cancer for a while now, and because of all the treatment he goes through he isn't supposed to be out in the sun. it was like destiny. me and gramps chilled in the condo and seriously were puzzle maniacs. i am not a huge puzzle person because they just HURT my brain, but because i am so competitive i just couldn't back down. on the first day we put together a 500 piece puzzle-let's just say i officially hate puzzles. it was so difficult, because there are like 8 tractors that all look the same.

anyways, it was so nice to hang out with grandpa. we didn't really talk much, but just the alone time was nice. he has such a sweet spirit about him. it made me remember how much i love my gramps for who he is. a quiet man on the outside, but once you get him started he'll talk your ear off!

i am so lucky to have great examples in my life.

helado.

have you ever tried popsicles in mexico? i am not talking a popsicle on a stick either. if you have been to mexico you know that a) coconut is THE best flavor b) a little piece of heaven was placed in rocky point & c) they are addicting.

i have been in mexico since sunday and decided to bring only $25 down across the border. you could say i have really no desire to spend the money, but seriously i knew that i would spend it all on food (seriously..who wouldn't?).

anyways, monday and tuesday came and went and i stayed mostly up in the condo or down by the pool. never did i see the helado man until i walked up to the condo for the day on tuesday and look down over the balcony to see several people from the family eating coconut popsicles. ummm hello...you don't even have to ask if i was jealous. that was a given. i was sooo jealous that i decided to conjure up a plan.

i had decided that the next day i would take my whole $25 and buy out all of the coconut helados before anyone else in the family could. yes, i am selfish. haha. i was up all morning with the binoculars out trying to scope out the target (aka helado). it was just my luck when the family decided they wanted to go into town to shop. i could of stayed at the condo by myself, but i decided to go even though i knew i wouldn't be spending money.

eventually we drove back to the condo where i hurried up the elevator, peered over the balcony to see TWO helado men. luckily i had my money and my bag so i grabbed my brothers and RAN with all of the out-of-shapeness i had to get down to the beach. we sprinted to the first helado man..no more coconut popsicles. we then proceeded to sprint in the opposite direction for like a mile to the other helado man (yes my body hurt REALLY BAD). anyways, we made it to the second guy and guess how many popsicles he has...ONE. i was so angry. i wanted 25 popsicles gosh darn!

you bet your bottom dollar i ate that popsicle. and yes, i did share. but because i had done so much work to get it, it just didn't taste the same ;) i will never ever ever run to get another coconut popsicle again. it's way too much work. haha!

happy spring break!!

adios!

morgs

it's not always rainbows.

i don't feel like i have very many regrets in life. i try to live each day the best i can, but there are definitely days and moments that i wish i could have "redo's." when i say "redo" i refer to getting another chance. for example like when you're in 4th grade and the 4 people playing four square all like each other they randomly decide to each get 7 redo's before they actually are out. yes that is a personal experience; no i'm not still bitter ;)

i wish people could see each other based on the intentions and goodness of their heart. that people wouldn't just assume that others wish the worst for them. i wish everyone could just get along. i wish that real life was the way i imagined it when i was young.

but then i realize something.. i realize how great i have it. how sweet and special every happy moment in my life is. how real and wonderful the people i associate with are. how blessed i am to have the BEST parents that work hard for me and love me and my sibs. i am lucky to see how much they love each other (yes..i am even lucky to hear their gross lovey dovey comments to each other..). it gives me hope that there is still goodness out in this world, in this crazy place where people have free agency to make whatever choices they want to.

the moral to this story is that i want to be the best ME possible. i want to work on bettering myself each day and to not get too discouraged when i fall a little bit short. there are going to be good times, but there will also be some bad. sometimes you just gotta get through them cause like it's said, "without the rain there would be no rainbows."

my biggest thing to remember.

sometimes..

sometimes i like to get projects assigned to me on February 8th that aren't due until March 10th. i also sometimes like to not start the projects until March 9th at 9:30 PM. especially when you don't have the program on the computer to do the project. sometimes, that's the funnest part. it's so thrilling and adrenaline rushing. sometimes i start to fall asleep in the middle of doing the project that i have to download random software through asu. sometimes i decide that it would be a really good idea to not shut my computer at all so that when i wake up the program will still be there. sometimes when i wake up the program is magically gone and when i try to sign into my asu account it says there is an error like 15 times. sometimes when this happens i have to drive to school 2 hours early to redo my project until it's due at 9 AM (notice the AM part...).

needless to say, it's been a really awesome day where you show up to school in the exact same sweats outfit as the day before (do you think anyone noticed?? hahaha) and turn in the project online 4 minutes before it is due.

with much love and procrastination,

morgs

FB.

facebook is like a self esteem program. when you go to FB stalk someone and that person has defriended you it feels totally awesome. haha, i am sure it happens to only me though. talk about realizing you were less cool than what you thought you were bahahahaha

couldn't help it.

as i woke up early this morning i could tell it was going to be a difficult one for me to get out of bed. i went to the gym, came home and OF COURSE tried to cram in a little baby power nap.

i slept til it was pretty much too late to even be on time (of course, it didn't help that i was pretty much on the slow boat to China). as i was getting ready, my dad knocked on my door around 8:15 and was telling me he was out the door. realizing he doesn't normally go into work until 8:40 i quickly opened my door and asked him if he was leaving early to work. and then i saw him in his basketball shorts and sweatshirt and i finally remembered..

him and brother go to a cubs spring training game every year and today happened to be the lucky day. i cannot tell you how jealous i was that i couldn't ditch school (oh wait, i am in college, every day is a ditch day..except for me since i have crazy OCD about missing any little detail at all...).

i was expecting it to be a not so great day since firstly i was jealous of my dad and brother, and then i was late to my first class, and then i had to work on PHYSICS (please insert a "dun dun duuuuunnnnn" here). BUT surprisingly i had a really GREAT day. i felt genuinely happy. i smiled more. (i am not much of a smiler..). it was just a good day even though i had/still have a lot on my plate i don't feel stressed or overwhelmed. i just feel great.

yay me. tomorrow is tuesday...hopefully it's not a terrible tuesday but a TERRIFIC tuesday.

mr. warburton, this one's for you- we are going to be on good terms by the end of this class, whether you like it or not.

k thx.

love, morgan

my favorite person.ever.

happy birthday to my best friend ever. period. i cannot believe he has been out in the mission field for almost 8 months. where has the time gone?? okay, don't get me wrong..some days it feels like he has been gone for 6 years, but i am just SO proud of him. seriously. the people in south korea are so blessed to have nathan larson walk their streets, talk to them in korean, and just have his presence there. 20 years old. i cannot believe how old me and my friends are getting. 20. (that's like

2 years too old in mormon years since i'm not married bahaha). but seriously, it is so weird that my friends and people MY age are getting married, having babies, etc.

back to nate dogg..i love this boy to death. he has been there for me always and forever. even when

there was no one else around. he just gets me (for

the most part, obviously, since i am such a complex human being...aka GIRL). he lets me be a drama queen and still loves me even though i can be such a punk. i know that we will be best friends for the rest of our lives (please madison, just marry him?? ok thanks).

which brings me to a new subject...you know how when you grow up and get married you go on double dates with your best friend and their spouse? is it ok if you're best friends with someone of the opposite gender and do that? i have always wondered. if not, then i am forcing my sister to marry him, and if it's okay...well...then i am still forcing her to marry him because nate is WONDERFUL (to put it simply).

well nathan t. larson, i love you. thanks for being you. i mean that with all of my heart. you mean the world to me!

love, morgs

quick post before bedtime!

so me and my mom are WAY into number. for example, each time she looks at the mileage on the car she pretty much just counts down til the number makes a pattern or repeats itself, etc. THEN she sends me a picture message of it because seriously the only joy in this awesome addiction is sharing it with someone else who suffers from it. duhhh.

tonight i checked my blog. take a looksie at how many views i had...888!

seriously, this is da bomb.com and TOTALLY made my night. weird-it's the little things that count in life, right???

Love, morgs

this is my favorite kid ever. i watched him at baseball practice yesterday and they had to do the grapevine-talk about the funniest thing ever. i wish it wasn't so fuzzy but you make it work!!

bieber fever?

straight from the cutest 7 year old's mouth around town:

7: "justin bieber is gay."

me: "umm no he's not bud he likes girls!"

7: "no he kissed a guy that was dressed up like a duck!"

me: silent...

7: "you know when he sings 'baby, baby, baby? yeah, well he is singing to little baby boys."

bahahaha. where do kids get their info?? for real. let me tell you--this little boy's FAVORITE singer like 6 months ago was j.biebs. so much for having older brothers to tease you + little boys at school!

clicked.

so pretty much i think i am FINALLY starting to understand a super sonic basic concept. you'd think i would especially have already understood it since it's a topic i talk about pretty much every day of my life.

sometimes i like to go to the gym. other days, honestly, i really really don't. i ALWAYS love to exercise but sometimes i'm just so TIRED. my body HURTS. etc.. when i go to the gym i wear this nifty thing called a bodybugg. what is a bodybugg you ask? have you ever seen the biggest loser?? all the contestants wear a little black strappy looking thing on their arm. that's a bodybugg. it tells you how many calories you burn through out the day, steps you've taken, and minutes of moderate activity. i love it (it's too bad it's expensive, but that's what happens when something is too legit)!

anyways, sometimes i pack a snack for school on my longer days. on monday i had this brilliant idea to take an apple. BUT, what's an apple if you can't dip it in peanut butter?? so i take a little JIF to go cup and was all hunky dory about it when it just CLICKED. this little baby cup of peanut butter=250 calories. say what?! and i thought i was being healthy for choosing the apple and peanut butter over cheetohs or something...my BABY CUP of peanut butter was going to cots me my WHOLE workout.

yaaaa. like remember that time when i woke up at 4:45 this morning and then got on a bike and worked my little tush off to the point where i thought my legs may or may not still be there when i look down at the pedals for them??? SOOOOO not worth it. needless to say, i have been a lot better about choosing my calories.

here are some pictures for your enjoyment. (please excuse my face from the pictures as i have just gotten home from the gym and look WAY too awesome to put it in front of a camera)

peanut butter baby cup, i love you. but not enough to "fake" work out. for realz.

love, morgs

institute.

this semester i am taking a wednesday night institute class. i won't lie, sometimes it's really hard to motivate yourself to drive out to tempe when all you want to do is go home and sleep. BUT, i am so glad i went today. i think i learned a lot about myself tonight. have you ever read 1 corinthians ch. 14? it's a good one--i dare you to read it. i LOVE charity. ironic much?? anyways, i learned a cool trick. replace the word "charity" with "Jesus." it's pretty legit.

on another note, my teacher told a super sweet/awesome/neat story about his family. when my teacher was 13 years old his parents got divorced. his parents had been married in the temple in salt lake, but never took the actions to get a temple divorce. a few years later both of his parents remarried. his mom married a nonmember and proceeded to fall away from the church for over 20 years. his dad became very "hit and miss" when it came to church. both of his parents ended up getting divorced again from his step mom and step dad. about 4 years ago he was on the phone with his mom when she said to him, "i have some news!" he replied asking what was going on. she replied and told him she was going to be getting married. he was in utter shock and disbelief. as far as he had known his mom hadn't even been dating or talking to anyone. obviously the first question that came to his mind was "WHO?!" she replied saying, "your father of course!" his parents had started talking again and had fallen in love again.

i seriously love this story. my institute teacher happened to be a bishop at the time and was able to marry them. since his parents never got a temple divorce they were again married for time and all eternity.

my institute teacher is a great guy. obviously this story is sooo rare, but i have to admire the strength him and his siblings showed by staying strong in the church, getting married in the temple, even when both of their parents were unable to attend all four of their weddings.

eternity is so worth it. i may not be married, but i can tell you that forever with the people that you love the most is the greatest gift of all.

this one time i checked my emails. when i checked my emails i then saw i had 2 spam emails so i checked them. 2 emails from "Sale.illegal Drugs." what's the subject? "We have illegal drugs!"

this one time was TODAY. it may or may not have made me laugh out loud. literally. lolzzzz.

xoxo.

morgs

i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing..

is it normal to feel like you're walking on egg shells all the time? or that as someone walks to their car from class their eyes well up with tears?

this is my life every tuesday thanks to physics. i thought chemistry was bad..

i know what you're thinking..what's up with all these saddish posts lately?

don't even ask, cause i don't even know. school is overwhelming. life in general is overwhelming. it's so hard to look at things from an eternal perspective when all that's going on right in front of you is so stressful that you can't function.

yikes.

tginlt. thank goodness it's no longer tuesday. (i am allowed to say this only because school is over, who care's if it's still tuesday..).