a day in the life of morgan alexis..

today was the first day that i heard that your heart hurt. tomorrow it will be 5 months since you have been gone and the whole time you have been gone i haven't heard you complain, whine, or say anything negative about your experience. as i read those words of your heart hurting it took me to another place. i don't know how to describe it other than my heart started hurting for you. i am so proud of the way you handled your hurt. i am so proud that you are even more dedicated than before. i never thought that was possible. you are the most faithful missionary i have ever met and i know that you will be blessed more than ever for it. someday you'll make the best husband and father. you'll be a good provider because the Lord is teaching you how to do it right now. 5 months has never felt so long before but it's a start. it's crazy how many times in my life i feel as though i have been through experiences that have taught me patience. i obviously still have learned nothing as i sit here and anxiously think about how long you've been gone, and when you'll be back. somedays aren't as bad as others, but this past week, i have missed you a lot. i wake up in the morning missing you. i go a whole day without getting a text message and wish that you were here because i know you'd be the one to send me one. my heart is full and heavy. i am blessed because of you. you're wonderful, don't you ever forget it.