if only.

i have been quite bitter on this thanksgiving day. i am grateful for the opportunity to spend time with the family but i feel like a part of me is missing. my other half. he's another continent away and i can't help but miss him. someone who comforts me and understands where i am coming from. lately i have felt really unstable with all of the changes that others are going through around me. i like to feel in control of my life and so when i feel like there is a loss of control i feel "off." basically, i just miss bry and i wish time would speed up a little bit. if only, if only.