isn't it crazy how time is such an oxymoron? about 4 months ago the end of the beginning seemed to be no where in sight. it seemed like an eternity. it got frustrating, annoying, even somewhat painful. i can't believe the time has finally come. at the beginning of february this guy got his mission call. it was such a rush of emotions-i was so excited for him to go and do the work. when he read his call i remember hearing "argentina" come out of his mouth and being so happy until it was suddenly followed by "june 15th." all i could think was "is this for reals? you aren't leaving for 4 months?! you are going to be here my WHOLE semester?!!?" it was actually a painful thing for me-i was ready for the band aid to be ripped off then and there but to my surprise this would be the slowest ripping of a band aid EVERRRR.
time went by, some days felt like they drug on forever while others went by with a blink of the eye. a lot of the time i was preoccupied with school and work but it was nice to come home to find him here hanging out with the family at nights. as much as i wanted him to be gone already it was so nice and comforting to be with my best friend all the time.
in 2 days this boy will be set apart as a missionary. i am so proud of him-for who he is and what he has become. he is the most amazing boy i have ever met. AND he totally puts up with all of my hormonal and moody crap--BONUS! he will be the best missionary ever! {i may or may not be a little bit biased:)} needless to say, i cannot believe the time is here for him to leave. i can't believe how hard it has actually hit me-for the past four months i was convinced i would just be happy for him to leave and get started and now that it's here...well, i can often be found shedding a tear or two.
i love him to pieces. never in a million years did i think i would be the girl that sends out a missionary (especially at 20 years old--aka while all of my friends are starting to almost get married haha). bryant lars, you are the best thing that has happened to me-i mean that with all of my heart. you mean more to me than you will ever know. we can talk about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING and i am so grateful you were sent into my life. who knew that three years ago when you walked into my sunday school class would just be the beginning? i did. your grandpa is right, i do have a plan for you and i have since that day you walked into my life. i guess you could say i have an instinct for greatness :) {sorry for the endless sundays of staring at you, making you feel that i was stalking you, and then topping it off by getting your phone number to text and annoy you--look where it got us though! i guess i am not that sorry:)}
here's to the hardest two years of my life and the best of yours. i am grateful for the example you are setting for me and for brother. he loves you probably more than he loves me (you are too good to him). til 2013, right? love you forever and always.
xoxo,
morgs
oh Morgs! this brought a tear of two to my eyes! Bryant is going to be an amazing missionary and I swear to you, 2 years is gonna FLY by! 2013 will be here before you know it! love ya girl!
ReplyDeleteahhhh.. i know the feeling EXACTLY. when patrick left my world got turned UPSIDE DOWN. i still miss him every single day. i still shed tears. and i've come to the conclusion that it is OKAY. They are amazing to go out and put heavenly father first. And that makes us even luckier that we are lucky enough to have boys who will sacrifice being away from us for two years just to get doors slammed in their faces, people be mean... but be used to work miracles. it's the hardest 2 years ever, you're right. but we are SO BLESSED. love you. when you need to cry on someone's shoulder who understands, call me up and i'll be there in a heartbeat.. 4157516.
ReplyDeletemorgs!!! you are so lucky to have such an amazing guy in your life!! he sounds fantastic and that is so exciting that he gets to do this. but i know how hard it is, or i at least know a LITTLE of what you're going through - i'm not going to pretend like i know what you feel, because it's hard!! but i DO know that the time will fly by so much faster than you think it will!! and this will be SUCH a good time for both of you - i promise. in the meantime though... you cry! you let it out of your system!! and if you ever need to talk, i will always be a listening ear! hang in there girl. you are STRONG!! you can do this!!
ReplyDeletesending LOTS of love.